I think for a while now I’ve lived with a seperation of thought and action.  I mean to do one thing in my mind but my actions indicate otherwise.  The downfall of it all is that I’m equipped to succeed yet I choose to drift along.  My will power required to break bad habits isn’t strong enough.  It’s almost as though I need to be brought straight to failure to realize that I have to change up my lifestyle.

Waking up today to my cat pawing at my mouth, I realized that instead of just talking about the things I need to accomplish and finish, I need to set in motion the plan to actually do the things I need to accomplish and finish.  I snapped at someone this weekend for talking about all these things they wanted to do.  I basically said, “Ok shut up already, just do it!”  As I typed it out, it resounded within me for a bit.

Without going into too much detail, I think I’ve had this philosophical notion of my life that’s put a handicap on my abilities and progress.  I’ve lived a life of trying to be behind the scenes and non-interfering with everything around me.  It’s time I became a bit selfish and self indulgent to my own needs and priorities.

So with that, this is my declaration of progress moving forward!  I need to finally break into programming as a hobby instead of just an activity I do for grades.  I need to reduce the amount of time I participate in my other hobby and turn it into a form of study for my future endeavors.

As an aside, I think the use of Google Reader and Twitter compounded this feeling that I watch life instead of live it.  I have an abundance of things I read about other people doing yet all I can say is an uninspired snippet here and there.